Road For Joy

Should we just stop? should we just go back when everything just seems like a game? Should we just let go and live on our own? Should we just go on and live with out having each other around? Because it seems that nothing is working out. Because it seems like there is nothing left to hold on. But does it usually feels this way? i'd stay even if there's nothing left to hold on to. i'd still look out for you when I no longer have to. I would miss you enough.. or a little too much when i'm not suppose to. why now, when everything had ended? Saying I'm fine.. Saying it's going to be alright as long i have people around. No, it doesn't seem to work that way.. I'd look around for you. I'm sorry, I still do think of you. if only i could, i'd run back to you and confess.. "That i didn't mean everything i said. That i only want you to care.. that i miss you that i love you.. i really do love you.. Will you still accept som...

i dont know what to say. sometimes, i want you to stay. sometimes i wish you'd never come back and just live your life without me. I get confused.  Just how much do i actually love you? enough to let go of you, for you. stupid right?.. your were sincere,  i know. Appreciated. but is love enough? are these feelings enough to stay?  well it wasn't  for me.. it only means being hurt all over again. being alot more stupid again. i've had enough of those painful memories. Distance has always matter, Time never cooperated. everything felt wrong, including telling you how much i care. so i didnt bother,  with my strongest will i hid every feeling so i can be around you, so no one has to get hurts, or maybe so i wont go through the same old love story again, nothing was easy,  everything had to be thought of properly coz i had to give up before even given the chance to try. Letting go, when nothing has started. and Holdin...