Love in a Glimpse.

I found a love where everything  felt like a dream.
after a long time of no commitment, after  healing a broken heart. once i again i found love. 
its been a long time, i couldn't remember what it's  like to fall in love. in  fact, i didn't want to fall anymore, til i hung out with a group of new friends. there was that guy over there, who gets my attention. i kept my guard up, because instinct  told me, I'm going to fall for him. but then we eventually, became good friends in a short period  of time.  and like what my instincts  told me, i unexpectedly fell for him. i don't  know how, i don't  know why. i just did. 
Feelings were mutual, He hugged me really tight and kissed my forehead as i agreed to be his girl. we had similarities  that made us close, and dissimilarities that eventually turned out to be something we'd both enjoy. We would miss each other that it suffocates us inside when we are far apart and have a satisfying feeling as we meet every week. he would take a long walk to reach my house, i would wait for him through my window. 
Our relationship  was movie-like with a happy ending. He would spoil me with things i love. i would spoil him with kisses and tight hugs. we don't do the sweet talks, we'd tease each other, it'll be annoying but we kept going, coz those are the random moment where i suddenly say , i love you. not because we went overboard with our jokes but because i really do love him.  we'd stay all night playing games online on our own houses, well, couples who plays together stays together. :') but some time later, he'd have to leave for college, and we'd have to go through a long distance relationship. i kept doubting, and eventually lost my trust for him. we'd fight then just forget about it and leave them unfixed and happened to get tired of the whole bullshit. our relationship has ended, we haven't said a word but deep inside my heart, i knew it was over. 
Everything started to fade away, slowly. the feeling i get after he hugs me, the warmth i feel when we talk to each other dearly.  our differences  starts to clash, every unfixed fight eventually destroyed the both of us. It was tiring, but i didn't want to let go, because i love him..  a little too much. But he has already given up. and there i woke up one day, not remembering once again what it was like when he love me. its hurts, how someone you wish to be with, slowly disappears from your  memory, so i tried to go back through everything we had gone through, every messages, every pictures, every place we go to and got stuck in a past, waiting, hoping he still love me and for him to come back. then days passed, months, and a year. i went on feeling alright even tho he was no longer around. we'd  see each other once in a while, and when we do, strangely every feelings kept coming back for me. i get the urge of wanting to hug him really tight, but i never could. he might notice i still love him and feel burdened.  until as a year passed by, i decided. One year is enough,  i told myself. you waited long enough, its gonna hurt really bad, but lets let go of him. so for the last time i told him. as we met a day before Christmas, i got to hug him, he hugged me really tight that I've lost it and hugged him tight too.  as i let go, and he gets my present for him. my knees felt weak, my mind went blank. i wish i could run after him after we separate ways and hug him a little longer but if i did, i wouldn't  be able to let go. so for the last time, maybe not personally, i told him. thank you, sorry, and .. I love you.

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