LOVE || I’m a girl and i’m older.

 As a girl, would you fall for someone younger? how young? months? a year? 2 years? 5 years? doesn’t it bothers you, loving a younger one? he may look older but by age he is way younger than you are, don’t you get the feeling of taking care of a little kid no matter how mature he might be?
My Dad once told me, “if you’re gonna love someone, at least let them be 5 years older, so you’d both have the same maturity” and I’ve always wondered if its true because kids these days happened to be a lot more mature than people my age. and til this day i haven’t seen any proof of what my dad told me.
Then i remembered the days i dated a younger one, honestly, it felt abusive. I’m older but i don’t feel that way and i feel younger but i’m not. He takes care of me because he’s the guy, but i get the “big sister responsibility” feeling where i have to take care of this kid beside me. and slowly, i’ll wish he was older, and as i tell him that ,he tries to and starts to change into someone he never was. and I lose someone i loved dearly to someone i wished he was.
As the girl and the older one, Have you ever thought how harsh it’d feel for the guy when you tell him, “ If only you were older, you would understand” “ can’t you be little more mature?” “ well i can’t blame you, you’re younger”. As the girl , did you know it’d be harder to love someone younger? at some point it may not matter, but when it does get hard , the feeling of wanting to surrender sometimes is heavier than wanting to hold on. and As you continue to wish he was older, you never realize, as he try everything for the both of you, like stop doing everything that seemed childish to you, Spends more time with you and quits gaming, Lose friends because they seem immature to you. he slowly turns to someone he never was. and you’ll be left with regret as he turns to someone you wish he was when he wasn’t suppose to be.
No. don’t say that age is just a number, if it was, “I wish you we’re older” and “ i wish i never loved a kid” would never be thought of.  Loving someone younger isn’t suppose to be any different from loving some older than you, girls. You’re the ones who said age didn’t matter.

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