Hyde And Jekyll meets Love.

i have two personalities.
i could be either the shy and unapproachable  type
or completely care free to literally everything.
so  , i could either love you dearly
or hate you to death.
 that was until i met you.
 Since then, nothing was definite
I get completely flustered, or sometimes hyped up around you.
I miss you even when i say i don't.
i look for you after everying good or bad happenings.
and seeing you would hurt me and happy at the same time.
because all i could do is look at you,the rest would be off limits.
in dramas, it'd be one meter away, you could say.
and feelings stay mutually hidden.
that's  how our tiny spark disappeared.
and maybe it was just a hallucination,
but then it was painful, but i didnt mind.
i was about to ho crazy as nothing was clear.
everything used to be just black and white.
but you came, choices vanished, everything turned gray.
you were the enemy who knew every secret
and the best friend who'd stay beside me.
i hated and loved the same person, coz' nothing was explicit.
you were someone anonymous, and someone i knew so well.
you were the reason i look forward to the future
and the reason why i'd want to die
til it was too late for me to turn back
as i realized  i was loving you unconditionally already.

"something so confusing.. could've been love under process."

Fiction.
Road for Joy 2016. (c)

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