"I Love You" , One last time.

On a day where feelings return.
On a place where we suddenly reminisce.
I'd smile through the happy moments
Learn from the times i was hurt.
I probably won't love less, nor would i choose to hurt others
" it has always been you" sounds a bit too absurb but not false.
These feelings that i don't know if they had disappeared then returned,
or has always been there just hidden.
I don't hate it, i don't wish to forget them.
But they are also feelings i could no longer tell the world.
How do i handle the feelings i'm not suppose to expose?
How can i keep these feelings without having to burden the other half.
Do i tell you tell once again that i love you?
one last time, so maybe I would get tired of saying it.
for the last time, so, maybe i'd stop expecting
for the last time, so maybe it'll be enough so i will no longer need you beside me.
for the last time, so maybe i will no longer care.
Can i tell you i love you once more time, through a self written song,
Can i tell you i love you one last time, by hitting the bushes, indirectly.
Can i tell you i love you, even tho it seems too complicated.
i didn't wait because of chances , i didn't stayed because i was too scared to leave.
Can i tell you once again that i love you, because i really do.
so i won't regret later, so it wont feel i didn't express enough,
so i will no longer feel i was lacking despite those perfect moments.
I love you, even if you no longer want to know if i do.
I loved you, like you were the only thing that mattered.


Road For joy 2017 (c)
and maybe in another life, you and me could last.

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