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Random || Leftover Drafts.

What is there to hate about love? .. nothing. Why others don't let themselves involved with love? .. it hurts,doesnt it? i don't know if its idiocy or just how one chooses how to love. but sometimes, love can really ruin you, mentally and emotionally. To love is letting someone else get a grip of your life and how you get a hold of their life. If that mutuality isn't there, its could ruin you. It sucks how you have to let others take care of you, and give them the chance to hurt you. its just how it works...  Love is to sacrifice,  love is to let go when it no longer works out You know its love when everything about it irritates you, when it doesn't go the way you want it to but you just let it be, When you don't want to see them when you actually do. When falling in love scares you, what may happen?  nothing, they would simply just leave. Leave, because its too much to handle. Leave, because it hurt a little bit too much. Leave, maybe it woul...

Feelings Against Reality II

no one knew, what we had. no one knows what we have we don't know til when we can keep what we have. i'd like to call it unfair but we knew this from the very beginning. we won't get the chance to try and i turn speechless as i hear you say " i guess we're really forbidden" it's not suppose to hurt much, because we knew this all along. i keep looking for excuses, a reason to give it a try, an excuse that says what we think of is just on our minds. that there is no such thing as forbidden. a valid reason that says everything depends on the both of us  and not what other people think an excuse to push through what destiny wont allow. but i keep getting reasons to stop Reasons to leave.. Reasons to just accept the fact that this is impossible a valid reasons that says this is the end of what we have. That i wasn't suppose to feel this way. that our feelings in not acceptable in any way that not only destiny but we...

Lost again.

i tried to save us. i made sure we wont get ruined no matter what choice i made.  but before i even got the chance to do any of that, you just left. as i was trying to tell you how i feel, and who matters most to me. you were busy getting mad, and didnt bother to listen.  you were to full of anger you couldn’t look at me.  i knew my mistake, i was in the middle of telling you that i was sorry.  i was trying to tell you that i choose you over him and he knows. but you kept repeating. "its up to me to choose" .. as if you jump to conclusions that i had made a choice and that it was him.  you jumped to conclusion that i already love him, so you choose to stay away from me. you jumped to conclusion we’re completely ruined without even trying to save it. you say you’re not mad at me but i could tell you dont want to talk to me.  i knew that you could leave me easily.  i knew if there was anyone who would leave from the both of us i...

Juliet's Story : Destiny & Us

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i'm scared, not exactly to fall in love, i'm scared of falling for you. The risk of getting hurt seems higher than being happy. i don't want to get attached but i think it's too late. i can no longer push you away, i'm scared, i think I've fallen for you already. this feeling i know, i'm not suppose to feel This feeling that makes me happy that at the same time makes a very sad story. This feelings that strangely feels like a crime this love that we best describe as forbidden . As i look at you through the phone and sighed heavily as my heart aches, I wished that i can pause this moment. As destiny forbids us, i wished that maybe at least i could tell you, without feeling any guilt I wish i could keep this love i feel. This happiness i haven't felt in a long time, As the timing is never right for us, and i'm just too weak to even try. i look at you as you fall asleep, how i wish i was there, or you were her...