Last Game.

Hi love,

i know we don't match well,
i never understood how to play your game,
the joy of just going with the flow,
the discomfort for every sacrifices that has to be made,
the excitement of the possibility  of winning the best thing i could have our life
and the pain for the chance of losing what matters to you most.

How happy you can be if you found a good match
how hurt you may be if you're left to fight this game alone.
How everything changes in a instant because of one mistake
How you end up being desperate to forget.. even the good memories
A game i'm so bad at, but never stopped playing
how i always give up at the end and restart all over again.

i want to stop all that.
i don't want to go through the same old love story with a predicted ending.
i  hate the idea of losing a part of me all over again.
i don't like the thought of opening up to someone new all over again. 
i no longer like the idea of love, as much i wish i still have the chance to win this game.

so love, this will be my last game.
and if i still don't win, if i still end up destroying myself.
then i'll wont play this game again.


Road For Joy (c) 2017
" Love is short, Forgetting is long"







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