Unreturnable Feelings.

i was asked to love someone back.
he wasn't  bad, in fact he's a nice guy.
Attractive indeed, and he showed me that he cares.
I could'nt bring myself together to tell him
"i like you too, and slowly i'm falling for you"
why? because i was still linked to a past.
and not moving on from that past was a choice.
that even tho i was falling for another guy,
i can't help it but feel like i was cheating.
i didnt want to hurt him.
and I tried my very best not to hurt him
despite all the feelings i had for him.
sincerely, i told him , you'll find someone better.
those words that i know well, that he wouldnt want to hear.
at least not from me.
but i didnt want him to expect anything,
even i wasnt sure where these feelings would go.

and to leave you expecting for something even i'm not sure of,

is something i dont want you to go through

Because at somepoint, i really did loved you.



credits, mangafox for the picture.

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