Road For Joy

it isn't because i couldn't let go of you. it isn't because i'm expecting for more. these feelings appear once in a while, and when they do i try to hide them, but i always end up exposing them indirectly, unintentionally. It doesn't ruin the moment, or maybe we're just good in not giving a damn about it. It feels like it may explode anytime, but i always try the very best for it to not go out of control, at least not where you'll get to see it. These feelings are no where welcome anymore, not even to myself. i treasured them, i tried using this reason to keep them. They kept coming back, its not me. I ended up wanting to keep them. but just til there. i don''t want it to get any deeper, because you'd think i'm stuck on you. i don't want it to get exposed, because i don't like the idea of it. I did my best to show you that its okay if you don't feel the same because we don't want this back anymore, WE. but i...

On a day where feelings return. On a place where we suddenly reminisce. I'd smile through the happy moments Learn from the times i was hurt. I probably won't love less, nor would i choose to hurt others " it has always been you" sounds a bit too absurb but not false. These feelings that i don't know if they had disappeared then returned, or has always been there just hidden. I don't hate it, i don't wish to forget them. But they are also feelings i could no longer tell the world. How do i handle the feelings i'm not suppose to expose? How can i keep these feelings without having to burden the other half. Do i tell you tell once again that i love you? one last time, so maybe I would get tired of saying it. for the last time, so, maybe i'd stop expecting for the last time, so maybe it'll be enough so i will no longer need you beside me. for the last time, so maybe i will no longer care. Can i tell you i love you ...