Road For Joy

minsan, hinde ko namamalayan . "ahh iniisip ko nanaman siya.." minsan napapansin ko nalang " hays.. miss na miss ko na siya" at ng dumating ung araw na makikita na kita.. " hnde ako makalapit.. ang laki ng hadlang"  ano yung hadlang? mhm.. ako. oo tama, ako. ung takot na paano kung marealize ko na mahal paren  kita. ung takot ko na baka mapansin mong mahal kita at lumayo ka. ung takot na pag yayakapin kita, mahihirapan na talaga akong pakawalan ka. Tayo na matagal ng tapos na, at ikaw na matagal ng akong iniwan, hanggang  ngayon hinde ko paren alam paano ko pakakawalan. ung isipin na mawawala ka na sa buhay ko man lang di ko magawa. maninikip lng dibdib ko. at hahanapin kita hanggang maramdaman ko na andyan ka lang. Tanga ko ba masyado para magmahal ng isang taong iniwan nako? mali ba na hanggang ngayon pinipili kong hnde ka pakawalan? sa tuwing nangyayare na naalala kita,  kahit gaano pa kasakit ang mga nangyare, bkt hnde ko magawa na kalimutan...

They wont come out. those words i want to tell you I say things i don't  even want to say "yeah, its alright" That's  not it, I don't mean it. Walk back your way to me. tell me to hold on. "hey, tell me you don't want this to end..please" stay a little longer, i know it's  stupid but we can fix this together. "Please... Don't let go of me..."  ...he continued to walk away i ran after him, hold on to his back, and tried again. "please.. please stay.." i had tears falling down my face. i kept holding on tight. but then, "Til our roads cross again, when everything is at its best" "if we're  destined to meet again, who knows" and lost sight of someone so special to me  i whisperly tell myself. "I'll wait for you, unknowingly, i know i will." it 'll hurt, im waiting for something that might not even come back. unconsciously,  wit...

Remember? it started out with literally nothing. We started out with nothing. We didn't  know each other. We were two complete strangers, destined to meet. Two different  worlds, collide.  Then we got tangled to each other. Something unexpected like love happened.  suddenly stuck with each other, inseparable.  and we didn't mind. It was just you and me, and the rest didn't matter. Our dissimilarities blended well. there were  up and downs. but we stayed  strong. Until something beautiful,  turned to something completely broken. It just ended. just like how it all started, but the other way around. Two couples,  destined to separate. One beautiful world broken to half.  our strings ,once entangled, got cut off. and as years past, it won't matter. who we have hurt, moves on. who lefts us,continues to live their life. our love will be a lesson and a good memory. As i reminisce what ...

im shaking.. i want to cry. i want to get mad to the point where i'll end up crying. i want to hit you real hard but ,no. i can't sense that my tears will fall down my face anytime soon. i don't see myself being mad because i would be faking anger  because i'm not mad. But here i am all quiet like nothing is fine but is actually feeling damn suffocated. i feel so lost. i feel liked i'm completely crushed out that I no longer feel anything, anymore. I loved you sincerely. I gave most of time time to you. i had myself focused on only you. i didnt only gave up friends but even my alone time to be with you. so why?.. what was i lacking? what more do you want? why did you have to look at someone else? Am i not enough? i loved you..soo much Sometimes, people are blind enough to not notice that maybe what i need wasn't to cry out or to beat the hell out of a person to feel fine again. Sometimes people are blind enough to not notice even apologizing  doesn't reli...

*How? how did you let go with out looking back? Why? why didnt you bother fighting  a little longer? What? what happened to the promises you made? When? when was it ,where we were totally fine. Who? who is it that's  hurt most?  was it me or you? * I've already given you a spot in my life for the future to not see you in my life was unimaginable But .. you left, with no words said. and there i've shut my doors so everyone else. Because to fall in love , meant. Once again i have to introduce myself, Get myself together to trust someone new and maybe, get hurt again. *slowly, I won't remember what it's like without you i won't remember the days we first started going out. i won't  remember what caused our first fight i won't remember who chose to let go i won't remember how painful it was, when that day comes, I, my self,  won't remember you. *i Loved you. when you were always there to get mad at my mistakes; when you use to ...

i was asked to love someone back. he wasn't  bad, in fact he's a nice guy. Attractive indeed, and he showed me that he cares. I could'nt bring myself together to tell him "i like you too, and slowly i'm falling for you" why? because i was still linked to a past. and not moving on from that past was a choice. that even tho i was falling for another guy, i can't help it but feel like i was cheating. i didnt want to hurt him. and I tried my very best not to hurt him despite all the feelings i had for him. sincerely, i told him , you'll find someone better. those words that i know well, that he wouldnt want to hear. at least not from me. but i didnt want him to expect anything, even i wasnt sure where these feelings would go. and to leave you expecting for something even i'm not sure of, is something i dont want you to go through Because at somepoint, i really did loved you. credits, mangafox for the picture.

*I saw you , right there , looking at someone else. with the feelings same as mine. Hoping to be noticed, at least for a moment. Hoping for a smile , where i'm the reason why. Wishing you'd come closer, and just Look at me, the same way you look at her. Just one more time. *She , used to be me. The one you're head over heels for. The one who's always right next to you. The one you'd always watch out for. The one who receives your Good morning and Goodnight message. The one you'd call, right after you left. The one whose name you'd call out so dearly. She, who makes you smile so brightly ,used to be me. * I knew, but i didn't want to let go. I knew, everything has ended. i knew, you've let go of me. I knew, it won't matter to hold on. But then i hope for another chance. a chance to see you fight for us a chance to see you hold on for us. a chance to see you walk your way to me. a chance to have you hug me a chance to hear...